The cards are drawn from The Herbalcrafter’s Tarot deck. The Wheel of Fortune as the Kitchen Garden signifies a change of events and finding the larger pattern in the chaos of the seasons. The Moon is Datura or moonflower for the unknown and the wisdom in the subconscious. “Learn to speak the language of symbol, myth, and metaphor.” The Ace of Fire as Mullein symbolizes new endeavors that take hold and pursue an ancient calling from Spirit. “Take action to magnify your magic.”
This week, October 5-7 marks the void-of-course moon when it makes its final major aspect with Aquarius (10/5, 6pm CST) before changing signs into Pisces (10/7, 10pm CST). Most times it lasts for several hours. This time it lasts for two days. This is usually a time to refrain from launching something because it may not have lasting power and there is a drain on energy.
It is uniquely a time of nothingness. Perhaps no return texts, invitations, or responses, like the moon having no light of its own and is dependent on the light of the sun. These days can feel exceptionally lonely and sometimes I’ll reach out to friends only to find no one around. So I surrender, take extra good care of myself, and use the time to rest and even sleep. I will wander.
My friend Shaun sent a video the other day making fun of the artistic creator. A man sits in front of his laptop unable to type but instead watches a sensory satisfying video. Then he stares out the window and eventually goes for a walk while the narrator chastises him for being lazy and wasting time. The narrator then expresses sarcasm as the man sits to write in his journal. “Oh god, now he’s journalling!”
This is my life. I have come to terms with the fact that I do stare outside my window often with a cup of cacao or tea talking or listening to Spirit or simply admiring the tree and sky. I do lie down to sleep if I’m tired and will meditate or journal, and even organize my closet to sort out my thoughts. The overachiever and people-pleaser in me will pipe in to judge my “laziness,” but I’m aware of those voices. I acknowledge them and continue listening, moving my body, and staring.
I now know that these are the times I am allowing my brain to connect dots and form new neural pathways while my nervous system regulates and my body heals itself. There are times these “sessions” exhaust me and I’ll need to lie down after sitting. I’m understanding it’s because my cells and soul are healing at a deep level. I’m no longer beating myself up and working past what I can physically and mentally handle.
Before it was a badge of honor to be a workaholic who kept all the plates spinning. Today my life is designed for ease and efficiency. I am more productive when I do execute tasks of productivity. My body seems to know the right timing for each action. I know my Human Design as a Manifesting Generator is not to initiate or chase. It is to attract, so I spend my time optimizing and improving my body and energy to bring in the right opportunities for which I can use my skills.
I have faith that resources are abundantly available for me to be able to serve in this capacity that I have been developing my entire life. It is quite an unconventional but beautiful life.
My teacher Adam Elenbaas says we’re here to live, but we’re also here to die. That process of letting go of the things we accumulated during the first half of our lives, including beliefs, values, status, and all the stuff that we insure and have a hard time giving away. In this longer-than-normal void-of-course moon, we get to practice dying a little. Feeling into this nothingness where things are naturally releasing so we can move to the next phase lighter and freer.
Take it easy.
Thanks!